My Fitness Journey

I always promised myself that I would never be one of those moms or pregnant women that let themselves go. I promised that the day I decided to start trying to have a baby, I would be in the best shape of my life, eating healthy and working out on a regular basis. Well... surprise surprise, life doesn't always happen the way you plan. I was very fortunate and got pregnant after 1 month of trying and had horrible nausea that was only controlled and helped by super greasy food for the first 4 months of my pregnancy. I had ridiculous and out of control swelling due to borderline pre-eclampsia which caused me to start gaining about 2 pounds a week by month 5. Last but not least, the baby started pushing on my sciatic nerve by month 7 which completely immobilized me and left me basically bed ridden for the remaining 3 months of pregnancy. By the time baby Zane came into the world, I had conservatively put on 95 lbs. Granted, a lot of it was water weight... so the first 45 lbs came off really quickly (within the first 2-3 weeks of delivery), that last 50 lbs was not so nice. I am now 3 months pp (postpartum) and I have not lost a SINGLE pound since the initial 45 lbs loss. 

My hubby and I have our anniversary on August 7th and he decided to be super romantic and suggested that we go back to Delray Beach, FL, where we got married to celebrate. Super cute idea right? Except that I am NO WHERE near feeling comfortable enough to strut my stuff in a bathing suit. I look at my body and all I see is cellulite, loose skin from the weight that I have lost, and fat (On a side note - who knew that you could get cellulite on your back?! like really?). I know I'm being a bit dramatic, but I think we've all felt a bit discouraged at some point after pregnancy about our bodies.

I've decided that instead of feeling bad for myself, I am going to do something about this situation starting TODAY. I have a tendency to procrastinate (don't we all?) and this is how I am now 3 months pp and no closer to being at my pre-pregnancy weight. I am going to take my measurements tonight and take some pictures so I have a starting point to look back on when I feel discouraged or feel like taking a bite of a donut (or when I feel like eating a whole box of donuts... lets be real). 

Wish me luck! Mission: Pre Pregnancy Weight starts now! (The picture at the beginning of this post is from when I was 3 weeks pregnant and still working out. That is my goal weight!)

** Note: I don't generally believe in extremes and I don't think that cutting out all the foods I love the most (hamburgers, ice cream, donuts etc.) is a long term solution  - however my goal is to be in better shape in 2 months so a big change needs to be made. I believe that in order to maintain a healthy body and lifestyle, moderation is key so that you don't end up binge eating or giving up. 

xox Tovah

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